Neigh!

You know those horse buggies in the city, how the horses always have lenses on that keep them from looking away? That's how I'm feeling right about now.

For a while now, I have been obsessing over the idea of something happening that, when I am alone, I realize is absolutely outrageous. My friends can tell me over and over again to stay optimistic about it, but I know how unrealistic the dream situation is.

As if that isn't disappointing enough, I have become so focused on this one thing that I have missed out on so many opportunities. Like those horses in the city, I have been trained to keep my stare in one direction. I have passed by so many things because, distracted as I was, I just didn't realize they were there.

I'm ready to take off my blinders. I want to see the whole picture, not just that one thing that has consumed me. But, at the same time, I wouldn't even know how to start. You can remove the blinders but the horse is still going to look ahead.

That's me, guys! I'm just a blinded horse trying to regain her vision.