Raw

Part of growing older, I have noticed, is realizing how honest your past decisions were. What I mean by this is as we are presented with new opportunities, we may doubt the choices we once made. Sometimes a commitment you made three years ago may seem to be holding you back from the things that feel important now.

But, you still made that commitment at one point. Three years ago, it sounded like the best possible option.

And so, when you are doubting that commitment, think back to the moment you swore this was the future you wanted. Do you remember how raw that emotion was? You had no idea what you were getting yourself into, but at the time it was ALL you wanted. It was the thing you were dreaming about when your teacher found you unprepared to answer her questions. It was the thing that kept you home during a double snow day, perfecting any application that could ensure you would get you there. Don't you remember how badly you wanted it? And now you have it, so don't ever doubt it. Ever.

Madonna says her lover makes her feel like a virgin, touched for the very first time. That's how you should feel whenever you look back on the decisions you made. Remember how life changing, how raw, this once was for you. Be happy that you HAVE something that was once the only thing you wanted.