Mean what you say (honesty)

All the things I said today
Or rather, said at all
So many of them will be forgotten
Unheard and left to fall

And still, I know, some words I've said
Have been taken down in note
Not to be remembered, but to serve
As an example of what I promote

So all the things I said tonight
Or said at any time
Have become a mask of what you see
When thinking of who I am

Conscious of this, I cannot stop
Thinking of all the lies
The things I made up or ignored
Trying to fit in my disguise

A disguise of who I want to be
But really who I'm not.
Saying things I think will make me
An object of your thought

And soon enough the mask you wear
Forms nearly to your skin.
And suddenly the lies you spoke
Become the lies you're living in

When really, it all goes back to when
You spoke those words out loud
The time you thought you weren't enough
And needed lies to make you proud

But likely, it'a true that when you spoke
Bred in jealousy and spew,
That had you time to think it through
would've said words that you meant to

But still, you hold to what you said
Afraid to look like a fool.
So what you said, however wrong
Becomes your guiding rule

The things you didn't mean to say
Are now the things you preach.
So easy to say but not always true
Your flaws originate in speech

But still, out loud
My voice it rings.
Does that mean
I mean these things?